I was bullied for most of my childhood and spent the majority of my teens and early twenties struggling to keep my head in good order. I struggled with depression and had crippling anxiety that drove me to explore anything that I could find that was extreme, dangerous and intense. I became a bike messenger when I was 19 and this was truly a blessing and a curse. The intense demand of the job kept the dangerous thoughts and painful feelings at bay while simultaneously numbing me to any of the subtle messages that my body was trying to convey to me. When I was 24 I closed the bike messenger company that I had created and decided to pursue my life as an artist again. At this point my legs had become locked in place from the tens-of-thousands of kilometres that I had logged on my bike and I wasn't able to go a day without smoking weed and indulging in other harmful compulsive behaviours due to the pain I was feeling.I moved to British Columbia in 2015 and spent the next 3 years looking for answers in the forests , pushing myself yet again to extreme limits as a tree planter. It was in this time that I started to realize that something was not working and that I couldn't keep living life the way I was living it. Every day was a new experience of pain and I didn't think it was possible to ever go a day feeling like my body was somewhere I actually wanted to be.I decided that life was only worth living if I tried to find answers to the questions I had about my mind body and soul. I made a deal with myself to not give up until I found ways of moving and feeling the way I wanted to feel. Over the last five years I have found many answers to the questions I had and now live a life where I am mobile and and mostly pain free and feel a deep trust and connection with my body.
BCRPA Personal Trainer
Hakomi Somatic Therapy- Level 1
-Over a decade of competitive Judo
-Former long distance cyclists- Multiple 200,
300 and 500 km rides Total over 10,000km
ridden in all seasons touring and racing
My forms of expression